Tuesday, July 28, 2009


I feel like ever since I was a little kid, any time I got my hopes up, I was let down. Any time I ever said anything outloud about something I had my hopes up for.. I was let down.
Getting a car... let down
Getting a good job... let down

But if I don't say anything out loud then it happens... no one knew that we were car shopping or getting a car until after it happened because I knew I would jinx myself if I said anything out loud.
Then I was sooo excited about this job opportunity (the receptionist at the vet's office) and everyone knew about it and I had sort of made plans in my mind about how things would be after I got it and I didn't get it!

It's always been like that! I don't know if it's God saying... Don't say anything outloud, pray about it. Or if I just don't have any luck!!

I can think "Everything happens for a reason" "This means there will be a better opportunity" blah blah blah... that's easier said than done. I am so disappointed. I was really hoping for this job! I mean REALLY! It wasn't just going to help me, it was going to help other people.

I guess I will just move on from this let down and get ready to set myself up for another.

Here's a strange thought... I didn't talk outloud to many people about getting married and I didn't get let down! WOO HOO!! :) I love Jeremy

So is hope a good thing or a bad thing? Should I have it or keep it inside? If you don't have hope what do you have?

Here's a few definitions of hope:

1.the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.

2.a particular instance of this feeling: the hope of winning.

3.grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: There is little or no hope of his recovery.

4.a person or thing in which expectations are centered

1 comment:

  1. Steph, I completely understand about being let down and if I don't say anything I'm not.

    I think part of it is if you don't tell anyone about something and it doesn't happen then you don't feel as let down because the pressure from others isn't there. I love you, and if you need me, call me! anytime!!